Wuooooooo (BERSERK)

yea well i got stress n more emotional this year.. i feel different of me.. too scared to remember it
and now in new situation i have new xperience than before, add on feature and updated myself with my own way
i follow my trend  and tryna to be me used to be
when our grandma or mommy youth memorial, they found love mean the romantic n good
so we also conclude that love is full of romantic situation and the place to share affection
but now the 20th century people change that mind..
love also mean the hopeless, a sad story, sexual assumtion, foolish time to hangin
but u know.. it's cause by the people themself... cause they make it happen, make it be like that
little tired to see the people's talk about love in wall of my social account, or song
i think not every one write that is true happen to them.. maybe just small lie to impress others
or make a good scene of themself
i don't insult some1, i just view in my glasses.. i just ordinary person, i can be true or false..
and must decide the better way along on and beg 4 God to make me luck
it's human used to be, right...
too many people hate me,or don't like me, i can't feel it,  but they smart enough to hide it
even to them enemy or other people except me that they hate
now, i don't know yet topic to talkin yet,
hard to make joke, but i have good sense of humor
uncomfort to make mean relationship in school, but it will be little fun if i have chance
i'm little weird, huh ??? :PP like mean relaty, you fool, nan !!!
i don't know, what kind of other's expectation to a human, be good? look cool? good humor?
you musn't, and nothin can be like that, The Most Perfect God also mocked by several human... 
but you can fulfill one or several of list request expectation.. like just be good to others
i'm not a person to talkin loud bout shit to others, or screamin like you wanna say help in danger
cause i'm worried what will happen after i do that?
future is mistery, past is answer, now it's progressin
people hope 4 future, they wanna good future also me, just the fool crazy, don't want it
people also remember, and regret the bad in past, why i have doing that ?? but if good, they will say
"when it will happen again???" it's aplly to me
i think that's enough.. to me.. blog is half of my diary.. like to write on it
i'm so appreciate the people who wanna read this.. thanks.. leave a comment if u want :(